The article analyzes the film "First Reformed" using Lacan and Žižek's perspectives. The main character, Pastor Toller, faces a crisis after losing his son in Iraq, leading to a journey of self-discovery and environmental activism. Toller struggles with his desires and ultimately chooses to pursue his calling, even contemplating self-destruction. The analysis explores Toller's transformation from a subject in crisis to a subject embracing his desires, applying concepts from psychoanalysis and ethics. The film's message in the context of a pandemic is also briefly discussed.